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Sunday, June 25, 2006


250606 ;
SUNDAY ;
MIRACLE WEEKEND !!

yayyay !! met ben ; brand ; brand's girl ; yx and jas at BAKAU LRT today . hurhurs ~
dhen went to meet rowena ; natalie and malcolm at CP !! hahas -

waited for yx de fren return him HIS LIGHTER dhen go take MRT to CHURCH liaos !! yayyay !! FCBC RAWKS babehh !! hohohos ~

hmmm . had a great tym dere lar . hahas . HAD LOTSA LAUGHTER ON THE WAY TO CHURCH . bleahs ~

hmmm . STUPID BEN YEO ; kip making miie . arghs !! hurhurs ~

during service he so STURBBORN LOR . ask him STAND dhen he DUNN WANNA stand . ask him go DANCE den he DUNN WANNA DANCE . arghhs !! kill miie mans ! ahahas -

hmmm ; aft dhat , went baq to my seat . BEN seat BESIDE miie okays . IDIOT !! -.-
he kip making miie LAUGH lars !! arghs !! hahas -

cannot stop laughing . the stupidest ppl i EVER knw !! hahas . he asked miie if cann take photo during SERVICE ?! hahas . dhen he took wit yx dhen take wit miie lars !! hahas . he very idiot de . i ask him delete the TWO PHOTOS we took TGT . hahas -

dhen end service liaos . CANT FIND HIM ?! arghs !! hahas . dhen he called miie . hurhurs ~
saw him liaos !! hahas . dhen went to take MRT together . half way ben STOPPED ?! hahas . he ask miie to pey him take PHOTO AGAIN ?! hahas . how zilian cann he ever GET ?! hurhurs ~

hmmms . dhen everyone PS-ED us lars . hahas . dhen miie n ben faster go runn n FIND them nors . hahas -

hmmm . in the train teh STUPID BEN really kip making miie LAUGH NON STOP ?! wakakas !! hmmm . well .. sadded . he went to cut hair . i din wanna follow him cos i m not interested . hahas - LOLs ~


hmmm . saw the CHURCH GUY ! hais . lol . i m NOT gonna THINK of him okays ?! arghs !! hahas -

hmmm . dhen went to PS wit nat ; rowena n jas . hahas . so FUNN !! ROWENA is telling us the story abt THE OMEN and THE NUN . hurhurs ~ really SCARY !! hahas . we were sitting dere for lyk HOW MANY HOURS ?! hohoho ~

aft dhat , finish liao dhen go ARCADE PLAY ?! reminds miie of EVERYTHING but i have NO FEELING FOR IT AT ALL (: kekes -

hmmm ; aft ps dhen we went to HOUGANG MALL ?! hahahas . really la . MY SISTERS ARE PRO mans !! WE CANN GO ARD THE WHOLE SPORE IN ONE DAY TO SHOPP NORS . hahas -

hmmms - okays . its getting late . gonna slp soon cos tml got the STUPID SYF PRACTISE THINGY ?! arghs !! hahas -

ANYWAYS !! TODAY I REALLY HAD A GREAT TYM WIT UE GUYS !! ESP MY GIRLS n THE STUPID BEN !! hahas -


hmmms . will upload the PHOTO SOON . once BEN SEND IT TO ME dhen i will UPLOAD liaos . hahas -


TAKECARES GUYS . GDNIGHT !! MWARKS . LOVE UE GUYS TIL THE VERY END okays !! SWEET SUGARY DREAMS ((:

~ { 6:07 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Saturday, June 24, 2006


walaos ~
SOME PPL are OH - SO - DUMB ?!
walaos ~ ue wanna beat ppl oso must KNW who is that person ryte ?!
i wonder IF THOSE PPL knws WHAT IS CONNECTION ?! I BET THEY DON'T . LOLS -

come on lor . ue beat HIM uhs ? ue finding DEAD END for URSELF la GUYS !! stupid FELLOWS lyk ue GUYS dhen DO THAT -
have ue EVER think HOW BIG n HOW LARGE his CONNECTION is or not ?! walaos ~
come on lor . tryin to touch his girl oso ?! well , LOOK into the MIRROR bfore doing that okays ?! WELL , though i m UGLY , ue DON'T LOOK NICE TOO (:
so , dunn EVER EVEN TRY TO TOUCH HIS GIRL lars ! BASKET *
WELL , for UR information , HE wun let ue OFF so easily de yea ? hohoho ~
beat HIM until VERY SHUANG uh ?! hahas ~ i guess ur INJURIES now is NOT GOOD too lars uh ?! wakakas ~

heed my ADVICE man ; THINK OF THE CONSEQUENCES BFORE doing SMTH okays -

DUMBOs LYK YOU !! will so STUPID-LY go OFFEND HIM lars . IDIOTS -

I DUNNO WHAT WILL HAPPEN NEXT LAR BUT I QUARANTEE UR LIFE WUN BE AS EASY IF DEY WANN TO FIND UE TROUBLE LOR . AS I SAID , UE DON'T KNW HOW BIG THEIR CONNECTIONS ARE lars ?! LOLs -

takecares uh !! GO HEAL UR WOUNDS LARS ! wakakas ~ DUMB-ASS !

WELL , GOT SMTH TO TELL YX 'LAOGONG' . BOY , dunn get TOO FED UP OKAYS ?! pls ?! (:
takecare uh . RMB WHAT DID UE PROMISED MIIE ?! HOHOHOS ~
best is YOU WUN GO AND FIND THOSE NO LIFE PPL lars but i knw THATS IMPOSSIBLE la . i WUN BLAME ue cos HE'S ur BROTHER wad (:
BUT i HOPE its the LAST tym okays ?! NO MORE FIGHTING LE UH ?! okays ?! SMILE ((:




arghs !! GOT SO CRAZY OVER THIS STUPID MATTER jus bcos of those STUPID DUMB-ASS WHO TRIED TO TEST HIM !! ARGHS !! THINK of the CONSEQUENCES lars !!



240606 ;
today !!

hurhurs ~
woke up lyk HELL EARLY CANS ?! WALAOS~ din slp well ytd lor . humphs !! UNFAIR !!
went to SCH for the STUPID CADET RECGONITION DAY -
bcame HELPER . walaos . STUPID FARHAN ask miie better REACH schh by EIGHT then in the end its 10 plus den START lar . dhen dey are not involve oso lor and they WENT HOME ?! wdh ?! arghs !! left miie alone !! yarks . phew ; LUCKILY i got my SEC3s SENIORS to pey miie . bleahs -

SHOULDERS were HURTING lyk hell ?! THE BURNT GOT REALLY WORST !! the CONDITION HAS WORSEN . how sia ?! everyone WANTS miie to GO SEE DOC but i dunn dare . humphs . really scared mahh . walaos . my arms even started to hav JUICE ?! juice LEAKIN out lor . started to have blister got JOAN ACCIDENTALLY bump INTO miie !! arghs !! its HURTING really LYK HELL !! hows ?! PAINPAIN * blister on HANDS lor ?! walaos . i m really SO SCARED lehhs . hais . SCARY !! how ? really so scared . dunn dare to SEE THE DOC - even MALCOLM wanna pey miie go see i oso dunn dare to see sia . HOWS ?! HOW SWEET eh malcolm ?! kekes . BLEAHS - lols -.-

well , everything went on SMOOTHLY except for my HANDS ?! walaos ~ hmmm . was given PERMISSION to change to FULL REDCROSS UNI den was ORDERED TO GO UP HALL AFT that . so , went up to hall and helped out . became the ARS- hmmm . nice job to be . kekes . LOLs . kip saluting those COLORED RANKS PPL . wakakas ~ LOLs ~

humphs ~ everything ends at abt 6plus ?! hehhehs !! hand painpain . really EVERYTHING IS GOIN SO WRONG . HANDS CONDITIONS ARE WORSENING sia . HOWS ?! arghs !! WASNT EXCUSED FRM MOVING THE TABLES N CHAIRS FRM HALL TO CANTEEN ?! do dey even have a HEART ?! I M HURTING LYK HELL but they din even asked miie to STOP ?! wakakas . NVM . i dunn blame dem cos its SUPPOSE TO BE LYKDAT i guess (:
those OTHER SCHOOLS de . use OUR SCH dhen NVR clear de lor . EVERYTHING OSO WAIT FOR MY SCH DE CADETS CLEAR . WHATS THE MEANING OF THESE ?! hehhehs !! dunn lyk it OKAYS !!

okays . its tym to go home okays . called jaslyn but she din pick up the FONE dhen saw her RUNNING in the COURTYARD n SAW JEANETTE waiting for her . hahas . JAS was PUNISHED bcos din TUCK IN SHIRT . wakakas ~ dhen miie n jeanetteMEI was lyk LAUGHING at HER ?! wakakas . shhhh .. BLEAHS !! LOLs ~

dhen WAITED for JASLYN lar !! so slow de . RUNN SO LONG de . wakakas . LUCKILY JEANETTE GOT MIIE TO ACCOMPANY HER or else she 's gonna be DEAD BORED !! hahas - i kip making her LAUGH until the CHEEK RED RED lars . hahas - LOLs ~

SO FUNN canns ?! ohhs . FINALLY !! she 's DONE with HER RUNNING . hahas -
so went to RM TO eat OUR DINNER TGT . humphs . mummy wasnt in SPORE . dhats why . LOLs . well . JEANETTE PS miie n jas !! hahas . she went to take her bus88 when she saw the bus coming . walaos . giving STUPID excuses lyk 'i wanna go home see my AH GONG lar . miss him ' walaos ! as if she is THAT GUAI lars ?! wakakas !! lols -

hmmm . NVM . wakakas . so miie n jas went to RM LJS to eat lar . hahas . SAW GERALD TOH !! hohohos !! miie n jas was lyk the NOISEST in LJS ?! wakakas . NVM . jus gotta get USE to it okays ?! cos THATS US !! we 're LYKDAT baby !! hahas - LOLs ~

kks . JAS gotta reach home by SEVEN ?! wakakas . so she sent miie HOME first . kekes . how sweet . i LOVE her manns !! lols ~
she was lyk crazy lars bcos i DROVE HER CRAZY on the WAY home . bleahs . i really WENT crazy lor . i dunn even knw wad am i doin lar !! hahas . i jus mad ard dhen she GOT so PAISEH ?! wakakaS !! dunn be shock okays . cos i did it ALWAYS (:
i dance ON THE BUSY ROAD whr EVERYONE n ALOT of CARS cann see MIIE lars ?! wakakas . dhats why she 's SO PAISEH but NVM lars . TOLD ue all liaos . JUS get USE to it MANS !! hahas -

if ue all dunn lyk how i m BEHAVING ?! then jus LEAVE !! (:
I DUNN NID UE ALL TO LYK MIIE cos i knw , PPL ARD miie knws who i am and dey are used to it liaos . I AM NOT LYK WHAT UE TINK okays . BELIEVE IT OR NOT lar okays -
hor JASLYN JEANETTE BEN BRAND YX SHAUN NAT ROWENA and tiaraFOUR ?! wakakas . dey knw miie the best . and GIRL , ue r at CRUISE NOW . but i knw i no longer stand whr i was in YOUR HEART lyk how i WAS in the PAST liaos . i UNDERSTAND (: nvm . ue still STAND teh SAME place IN MY HEART FOREVER . lols -

so NO LIFE PPL , if ue think i wanna ATTRACT ATTENTION OR WAD ?! BY ALL MEANS lars . i DUNN MIND cos I KNW !! I M NOT !! i DUN KARE WAD UE PPL THINK OF MIIE . I CARE ABT THE MOST IS HOW THOSE PPL ARD MIIE WHO R IMPT PPL IN MY LIFE THINKS ABT MIIE . and dey KNW i m NOT lars !! hahas . SO .. JUS SHOO lars !! ((:

BYEBYE !!


GOTTA GO PREPARE MY REFLECTIONS FER CHURCH TML liaos . or else MISSLIM gonna KILL miie mans !! hahas . yayyay !! BEN ; BRAND ; XING ; ROW ; NAT ; JAS ; MALCOLM and hope MORE are COMING to my CHURCH tml . hahas ~ yayyay !! gonna have a GREAT TYM WIT THEM I GUESS (:

BOY , I KNW UE WUN WANTO COME BUT I WILL STILL PRAY BCOS I BELIEVE THERE'S STILL HOPES UE KNW ?! ITS REALLY UP TO UE TO COME OR NOT LAR . sorry if i hav HURT ue wit my WORDS ytd la BUT I KNW UE WUN GET HURT SO EASILY DE LOR AND UE STARTED IT ALL FIRST DE LA . LOLs -

i pray THAT UE WUN BREAK UR PROMISE AGAIN NORS . I PRAY THAT UE WILL COME TO MY CHURCH TML LOR . UE KNW I PUT HIGH HOPES ON UE , DUNN UE ?! NVM , even if ue dunn wanna come , i will still pray that ONE DAY , ue will come . IT MAY NOT BE TML BUT MAYB NEXT WK ? i HOPE TO SEE UE SOON YEAS ?! UE SAID UE WANNA FIND ONE DAY TO SPEND ALL UR TYM WIT MIIE RYTE ?! I WILL WAIT UE KNW ? i wann ue to SPEND UR TYM WIT GOD , NOT MIIE . ((:

takecares !! LOVEYA !! really MISSya lars . hope to see ue in church lars !! OUR PROMISE AND SPENDIN TYM TGT ?! I WILL ALWAYS RMB WHAT UE SAY OKAYS - DUNN BRK UE PROMISE UH . i 'LL be DARN DISAPPOINTED ue knw ?! yes !! MWARKS (:

~ { 5:20 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Friday, June 23, 2006


bleahs ~

humphs . today woke up HELL EARLY CANN ?! wakakas -
went for tuition . sian *
finished tuition abt 11plus lykdat lor - humphs . dhen went to buy mac for my lunch . hohoho ~
yummy yummy . dhen went online . hahas . same thing la . chatted wit IVAN ; LOUISA ; SHAUN ; XUANLE and alot more lars. hahas . wad only . ALOT OF THINGS HAPPENED LARS . sian . hurhurs ~


stupid ppl have NO LIFE uh . wakakas . i wun kare so muchh lar . humphs . abt 5 plus lykdat JUNYI went offline liaos . sians * dey nid to go CRUISE liaos . hahas . boredbored . MY LOUISA ; JUNYI go CRUISE liaos dhen nobody PEY me liaos ~ BLEAHS *
gonna MISS them lyk wad HELL lykdat lor . wakakas ~ humphs ; miss them lars . bored bored . NO MORE ENTERTAINMENT FOR MIIE UNTIL SUNDAY !! yayyay !! SUNDAY !! weets !!


hais . aft dey go offline . really ALOT of things HAPPENED ; alfred , ue seriously HURT miie wit ur NASTY WORDS . ue made miie CRY again . i PROMISED i will FORGET ue aft dhis incident . i knw i CANN forget eu bcos HE had appeared . i dunn deny dat i lyk him cos i REALLY had FALLEN in LOVE WITH HIM . boy , i told ue bfore . EVERYTHING will come TO AN END - hais . today is the SCARIEST DAY in my LIFE ; its really the FIRST tym ue used those NASTY WORDS n TONE to tok to miie . and i PROMISED dat its gonna be the LAST tym boy -

now its only ue cann decide for urself . i have REALLY tried my best to persuade ue to church but bcos of those unknown probs in ur life , ue wanna give up this VERY ONLY OPPORTUNITY whrby ue cann meet up wit GOD . i have done my VERY BEST . since ue wanna give up dhis CHANCE , wad more cann i say ?



hais . SPEECHLESS LARS -
takkare ;


have to apologise to JUNYI ; he knws why (:



ENJOY UR TRIP GUYS (:

~ { 6:49 AM }
reflections of you and me;



220606 -

yayyay !! the THREE of us !! weets !! really HAD A GREAT TYM tgt mans !! hohohos ~
she 's SHERMAINE (ivan's meimei) ; hohoho - she 's REALLY CUTE lars . hahas . very funn to play with wors .

~ { 6:23 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Thursday, June 22, 2006


today !!


yayyay !! lulu n her COUSINS went to ESCAPE but i din tagg along . kekes . cos mummy dunn allow . bleahs . its raining lar and i woke up lyk AROUND 2pm in the aftnoon ?! hahas -

budden it begin to rain liaos so dunno why den lulu and her cousins came to sk lor . luckily dey got a REPLACEMENT DAY fer dem . hohohos -

den meet dem at RM . hahas . luckily i m ABLE to come out without mummy knwing . bleahs . LOLS . hmmm . took LRT dere cos my BURNTS ARE HURTING !! hohohos -


humphs . reached RM liaos den called baobei den she say dey at FOODCOURT so went to FOODCOURT and find dem lors . hahas . was lyk HELL BLUR ?! in the beginning den heard lulu calling miie den i saw dem liaos . hahas. saw SOFIA jie and evon dere too . humphs -

lulu kip pulling miie to her table dere . bleahs . i dunnwann . kekes . was really HELL PAISEH lars . humphs . wahhs . FINALLY SAW JUNYI liaos . lols . -.-

HUMPHS . den went to arcade . SAW YOUYI , NICHOLAS , YAKSENG , DUANMENG KOR lars !! weets . was lyk HELL happy . kekes. den went to play n crazy ard in the arcade . hmmms . was shouting here and dere at first den kena suan by youyi so i shuddup lor . hahas. den pinched youyi's nairnair . bleahs . hohoho -


this arcade reminds miie of the arcade miie n alfred used to hang ard . bleahs . hehs ! not gonna tink so muchh liaos. hahas -



well , went to change some money den play games liaos . hohohos -
well , knw dhis lil cute girl call shermaine . she 's junyi 's sister . hahas . she 's REAL cute lars . hahas . very funn lors . we played THREE games tgt ?! i think so . kekes . lol . stupid nicholas kip comin to disiao miie . dunn lyk it lar . hahas . jkjk . actually i lyk it . huh ?! LOL . im LAME lars . hmmm . den playing half way , lulu told miie junyi is leaving . huhurs - SIAN DIAO . hahas . dhen junyi said byebye to miie lor but i din care him . bleahs . how mean cann i ever get uh ?! bleahs . but junyi is REAL cute too lar . hahas . same as his SISTER ((:


JUNYI is a LOBSTER PIG lars okays . hahas . bcos he calls miie a lobster so i have to take revenge . so ppl , if ue guys wanna see how JUNYI looks lyk den go my friendster view it okays ?! hahas - he 's the RED COLORED LOBSTER PIG !! hurhurs ~



hais . tml lulu and junyi dey all goin CRUISE liaos . hais . gonna be SO LONELY mans . hahas . see who will be dere for miie again . kekes . BLEAHS . LOLs -.-

gonna miss them mans - LOLs . humphs .



TODAY HAD A GREAT TYM WITH LOUISA AND SHERMAINE IN THE ARCADE and LULU 'S hse . hahas -


MEMORIES *



GD NEWS okays !! SIR CALLED miie and told miie dat i was selected to go in for the MARCHING CONTIGENT FOR THE SYF AND I M EXCUSED FRM SCHH mans !! woahhs !! HOW GREAT mans ?! hahas . bleahs . happy and sadd cos monday cannot see lulu again . hahas - gonna miss LOUISA really MUCHH lars . hohohos ~



MWARKS . LOVED ~




sian . today kena HEAVY SCOLDINGS by MUMMY . saddsadd -

~ { 9:17 AM }
reflections of you and me;



210606

wahhs - went to SENTOSA wit my tiaraFOUR ppl . weets . hohohos -
humphs . was lyk HELL fun ?! bleahs . we REALLY HAD A GREAT n FUNN tym tgt nors .
we FINALLY got a DEEPER understanding abt EACH OTHER -
walaos - the SUN WAS lyk HELL STRONG ?! hurhurs -

miie , jas and grace met up at 7plus ? was waiting for SUNITA ?! hurhurs . she was STILL SLPING ?! we called her and left her 14 MISSED calls n 7sms i guess . hohohos . LOLs -


so we went to take mrt to HABOURFRONT WITHOUT suni first den meet her later . so when we were at serangoon dere den suni called and she said she is comin to meet us . hohohos . we waited for her at harbourfront de mac dere frm 7plus to 9plus lars ?! hahas . nvm . at least she turn up ryte ?! hohohos . so we went for tanning lar . MANY THINGS HAPPENED mann . so many NO LIFE PPL dere oso . hahas. but i din kare abt dem . dey look at us ? i gin dem . bleahs . who ask dem . look look look . bleahs -


humphs . frm 9plus sun tann until 5plus lars . walaos . was lyk LOBSTER ?! hahas - so funn yeas -


finished , went to bath , went to mac and mummum den grace nid to go home liaos so we send her home den suni and jas go under my hse block wit miie and we sat dere and TALKED lyk HELL long ?! hahas .




OOPS . really SO SORRY . today was really a tired day for miie so dunn wanna blog any longer liaos . kekes . BLEAHS -



REALLY HAD A GREAT TYM wit my tiaraFOUR ppl den i LOVE them . MWARKS ((:

~ { 9:02 AM }
reflections of you and me;



DUNN FEEL LYK BLOGGING OKAYS . hahas - I M JUS SO LAZY ?! hohohos -




170606 - at night during MINISTRY , i felt GOD's PRESENCE and his TOUCH -
i cann feel dat he touched miie and he had talked to miie . my WHOLE BODY trembled but nth HAPPENED , thank GOD (:
hais . i REALLY CRIED very badly ue knw ? humphs . life seriously is MISERABLE fer miie lars . lyk NOBODY cares abt miie lars . hais .

boy had LEFT miie alone lars - 100605 is GONE . hais . who will be dere for miie ? i hav been waiting for him for the PAST ONE YEAR but what hav i got in RETURN ? its NTH-
DISAPPOINTMENT is EVERYWHRE okays -

yes , though i miss ue really SO badly . i CANT do anything . i could ONLY cry . YES I KNW , ue think dat i CANT LIVE WITHOUT ue . i admit dat i did have THIS thinking BEFORE but NOT NOW okays -

LET ME tell ue boy , i will PROOF to ue dat i cann LIVE without ue okays . though its hard , i wun GIVEUP -

OUR memories will BE KEPT TIGHTLY in my mind NOW n FOREVER but those MEMORIES cant HOLD MIIE BAQ FOREVER ryte ? i really gotta MOVE on liaos . really have to . hais . i will MISS those days -

though ue think dat i cant live without ue , i wun blame ue lar cos its TRUE . but ue NVR knw when will i have my NEXT stead ryte ? ue cant possibly ask miie to wait for ue lyk how ue asked miie to in the past yet ue have ANOTHER STEAD ryte ? humphs .

THANK YOU for THOSE SWEET MEMORIES , i will KEEP it TIGHTLY in my HEART NOW and FOREVER -

I cant DENY dat ue 're the SWEETEST BOYFRIEND I EVER HAD . yes ue are the SWEETEST boyfren i EVER had -

YOU made my eyes to CRY for ue and made my tears to RUN for ue . i really HAVE NO MORE TEARS LEFT okays -

wanted to cry but cant ANYMORE . cos i knw . NO MATTER HOW HARD i CRY , ue wun BE BAQ anymore -

we REALLY had a GREAT tym tgt and i really WANTO thank ue lars . FOR EVERYTHING cos ue made THEM wonderful . we have memories ALMOST EVERYWHR .

ue made miie CRAZY OVER UE . CRY N LAUGH over ue . HATE N LOVE you too -


CONFUSED -*




i will BLESS those who BLESSED you and CURSE those who CURSED you for my LOVE for ue will NVR END until someone who cann make miie FORGET ue but i knw there WUN be ANY okays (:


i wished ue n ur GIRL will really LIVE happily frm NOW okays . treat her well bahhs . treat her lyk how ue treated miie in the past . its really SO WONDERFUL and i ADMIT dat i was the HAPPIEST girl when i m wit ue (:


NOW , ue shall lead ur life and i lead mine okays -


maybe , i knw SOMEONE better than ue will be here wit miie IN THE FUTURE yet NOT SO SOON ?! we NVR knw yea - LOLs .

LIFE is gonna be as PERFECT as before WITHOUT ue i HOPE (:



LOVEYA - MWARKS -



i m jus SO CONTENTED dat i EVEN can have this CHANCE to spend my TYM wit ue IN THE PAST and ue made it OH SO WONDERFUL -



sometyms when i m crying n so LONELY n TROUBLED BY THINGS , ue really NVR fail to make miie SMILE n cheer miie up . even AFT we broke up , ue were still dere for miie . sometyms i really wonder if GOD is tryin to tell miie dat HE wanna give me ANOTHER chance to be baq by UR SIDE but i guess the ANSWER is NO -
though things really happened SO SUDDEN - LY , it doesnt mean ANYTHING lors . and i really have LEARNT , yes , though ue were wit me automatically when i nided some1 by my side yet no1 appeared , it doesnt mean dat ue feel ANYTHING for miie . i learnt NOT TO BE SO BHB liaos - seriously , i knw i m OH SO CHILDISH -

i guess , GOD jus wanns miie to knw dat he wun made miie felt lonely so he made alfred to tok to miie only lars . NOTHING FURTHER THAN THAT . yes , mayb GOD jus wann ALFRED to be my CLOSEST FRENS ? we NVR knw yea ?


humphs . now i knw HOW CHILDISH AM I -

~ { 8:23 AM }
reflections of you and me;


Sunday, June 18, 2006


150606 -


DAY2 of the CAMP -


so sian . early in the morning must wake up liaos . humphs . wells , i slpt in the tent lars . hahas. walaos . its gonna be a tough day uh . sobbs -
erms . i tink i shall jus blog abt the main event today nors .. hahas . we got our master parade and I AM THE COMMANDER FOR SALUTING PARTY FOR SEC2s SQUAD . LOLs . humphs . was so paiseh cos very lost lars . its a SO LAST MINUTE thingy for miie lars . hahas . LOLs . luckily manage to shout the command out clearly lor . LOLs .


at night liaos ~ weets . ITS CAMP FIRE NIGHT !! hohohos . all got VERY HIGH lars . and i was lyk HELL ENTHU ?! kekes . i kip jumping non stop nors .. hahas . sing and jump . shout and play . hahas . enjoyed myself VERY MUCHH lars . hahas .


i realised dat i really had BONDED with my SEC2s cadet mates lars .. WE ARE LYK HELL CLOSE NOW ?! wakakakas . bleahs . i LOVE dem and its really those memories are ALL SO PRECIOUS to miie . hhaas . MONEY cann buy EVERYTHING BUT NOT MEMORIES . those memories dat i had wit my sec2s and seniors esp the sec4s are really SO PRECIOUS lars . NOBODY cann have those sweet bonded memories lars . we really had gone thru ALOT of things tgt . i promise to bring those memories wherever i go . and i promised !! i will NVR forget ue guys and i will hold and kip those memories tightly in my heart - as long as our hearts are tgt , NTH cann break us apart yea ? hahas . really feel lyk crying whenever i think of the sec4s leaving us alone managing those STUBBORN JUNIORS . hahas . its really HARD . i swear . really HARD . hais . soon it'll b us leaving dem next . hahas . anyways , i wanna thank all my sec2s , some of the sec3s and all the sec4s seniors for being dere for miie when i nided dem the most . i still rmb those tyms and days whereby i cried really terribily over HIM* and ue guys were dere to CHEER MIIE up lors . and its a REALLY CHEERING UP thingy lars . i LOVE ue all lars . REALLY . i swear (: i promised dat i will NVR forget ue all and those memories we shared tgt . i will owaes rmb i had REALLY SO MUCHH FUNNS wit ue guys during REDCROSS days and tyms . and we knw each other thru REDCROSS lars . so REDCROSS is the cca we ADORE and which bring us and helped us to create suchh nice and wonderful memories . i really am very PROUD to hav a BIG FAMILY lyk ue guys and i will tell everyone on earth even strangers that i LOVE ue guys bcos ue cos bring memories to miie and it really stays lars .. hahas . and its really memories la . we shared weels and sorrows , laughter and happiness nors . we laugh and play tgt and cry and quarrel with each other . its really lyk a BIG FAMILY lar .. dunn ue tink so ?



cadets and ppl outta . envy us ? try out . trust miie , believe us . REDCROSS and other cca that ue 're in la . ue really will have ALOT of memories tgt with ur mates and seniors even wit ur juniors ppl . ue will cry and laugh tgt . trust miie . i experience it too . my words all TRUE ((:

ur mates in CCA will b ur CLOSEST BUDDY than anyone bcos ue guys will b spending tyms tgt most of the tym so it will DEFINATELY BOND ue guys TGT ((:

no oNE will or CANN BE closer than the ppl in ur cca wit ue (:


takecare ppl . i shall end here for 170606 's diary . i 'll continue later (:


night night . mwarks . LOVED . weets -

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i was in camp dhat day . humphs !! woke up SO EARLY to bath but aft dat i m LATE fer REDCROSS camp . hahas. its a THREE DAYS TWO NIGHTS ; BONDING LEADERSHIP DISCIPLINE CAMP lars . walaos . when i reached sch , jus found out dhat i 've forgotten to bring my FULL REDCROSS U to schh lars . walaos . dhat pohying did and she KNOWS dhat we HAVE to bring but she din TELL miie ?! walaos . SO SELFISH lars . is dhis wad a CADETS MATES are for ? walaos . its ONE FOR ALL and ALL FOR ONE lars . if her attitude is lykdat den i rather she quit lars . better dunn let her see or else later SHE COMPLAIN QUEEN again . go COMPLAIN to sir or teacher in charge den i kena SCOLDINGS again . bleahs . dunn lyk her lars . hhahas . LOls . i guess she hates miie too (: at least i DONT hate okays (;

humphs . i was the DAY1 IC lars . STRESS * well , sir purposely go against miie i guess but i dunn blame him bcos he usually do dat EVERY TRAINING . hahas . LOLs . humms . was scolded many tyms lars . humphhs . gotta ACT FIERCE liaos . bcos DI must fierce den cadet will listen de .. walaos . dhis year CADET wun listen de lors . so fedup wit dem . so kip shouting lors . hahas . AT NIGHT !! we got dhis SOLO WALK activity . hahas . the seniors are suspose to act as GHOST and scare us . hahas . miie and irene have to play first bcos she nids to prepare for supper and i m the DI so i have to guide ppl thru nors . hahas . bleahs . WALAOS!! the whole game is quite BORED but funn lar . hahas .cos we manage to scare the ghost . hahas . i NVR kena scare sia . HAVE!! except for chiyong sir de .. walaos . scary sehh . hahas . LOLs . okays . dats the end of DAY1 . is dhat okays ? well .. if ue are not okay den i have nth to say too . JUST TOO BAD . hahas . LOLs. bleahs . hohohos . cos i dunn feel lyk blogging liaos but i got so muchh MORE LEFT to post so i HAVE to stopp here . I M SORRY :(( hahas -

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Monday, June 12, 2006


DON'T feel lyk BLOGGING !! arghs !! weets =P

really NO MOOD to blogg lars ! walaos . LOLs -

hmmms . jus FOUND OUT dhat ue 're THOSE kinda person lar . DISAPPOINTMENT EVERYWHERE -

do you really feel GOOD doing THOSE things ? DO YOU ?! don't you feel BAD at all ?!

GIRL , let me tell you this ; i GIVE UP okays ? happy ?

BUT gotta tell ue dhis STILL ;
LAST THING OKAYS ;


ur world may FALL , NEVER FORGET that i am always there for ue . yes , i HATE the way ue treat miie but i promise to be there WHEN YOU nid miie okays . i PROMISE to GUIDE you THROUGH when you wanto CHANGE baq to UR OLD SELF but i PROMISED AND SWEAR that i AM NEVER GONNA be THERE for you WHEN you wantto CHANGE fer the WORST (:


LOLS .



GOT NTH TO BLOGG LE LAR . REALLY TIRED . tml 's gonna MEET my EDMUND DEAR and KEITH sickening . hohohos . LOLs . DUNN FEEL LYK BLOGGING liaos .


TAKEKARE . GDNIGHTS . REST AND SLEEP WELL . i 'll PRAY FOR EVERYONE esp YOU , girl (:

~ { 7:39 AM }
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DON'T feel lyk BLOGGING !! arghs !! weets =P

really NO MOOD to blogg lars ! walaos . LOLs -

hmmms . jus FOUND OUT dhat ue 're THOSE kinda person lar . DISAPPOINTMENT EVERYWHERE -

do you really feel GOOD doing THOSE things ? DO YOU ?! don't you feel BAD at all ?!

GIRL , let me tell you this ; i GIVE UP okays ? happy ?

BUT gotta tell ue dhis STILL ;
LAST THING OKAYS ;


ur world may FALL , NEVER FORGET that i am always there for ue . yes , i HATE the way ue treat miie but i promise to be there WHEN YOU nid miie okays . i PROMISE to GUIDE you THROUGH when you wanto CHANGE baq to UR OLD SELF but i PROMISED AND SWEAR that i AM NEVER GONNA be THERE for you WHEN you wantto CHANGE fer the WORST (:


LOLS .



GOT NTH TO BLOGG LE LAR . REALLY TIRED . tml 's gonna MEET my EDMUND DEAR and KEITH sickening . hohohos . LOLs . DUNN FEEL LYK BLOGGING liaos .


TAKEKARE . GDNIGHTS . REST AND SLEEP WELL . i 'll PRAY FOR EVERYONE esp YOU , girl (:

~ { 7:39 AM }
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Sunday, June 11, 2006


WALAOS . I BLOGGED LAR BUT IT CANCELLED ITSELF . WDH ?! DAMN IT . why it din appear on blog sia ? wasted my 3HOURS sia . wahh .. very dulan sia . walaos !! humphhs .. nvm . will post it again another day then . LOLs . dhat 's sickening lar . walaos . LOLs . =.='' LAMESHIT !! argghs .

~ { 6:18 AM }
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Tuesday, June 06, 2006


060606 -


today woke up at 6.45am but went baq to slp again . mummy pulled miie up frm my bed and dragged miie into the toilet and locked miie inside :( hahas . she wans miie to wash up and prepare to go for redcross lar . dunn mistaken okays (:

wells . today gotta report to schh by 8am !! i left home at 7.40am and took lrt to schh . gotta meet dominic outside econ but waited for him lyk HELL LONG ?! but he din turn up lars . so ran baq to schh . saw the sec2s fall in liaos . arghs !! dominic was the DI ! he din wait for miie la . idiot . wakakas . LOls . got scoldings frm mdms mann .. wdh . wakakas . sec2c got their uniform check . hmmms . EVERYONE fail man !! luckily miie and dominic passed the silver course at HQ liaos so we dunn nid to take the silver footdrill test or uniform check . kekes . LOLs .


aft uniform check , everyone were to changed baq into MUFTI and report to G2-O1 . wakakas . miie and dominic went to RC RM to take first aid equipment and outdoor poles . LOls . humphs . was really funn lar . its a LEADERSHIP CAMP lar . WHOLE DAY CAMP sia . was really tiring but enjoyable lors . cos was bond together la . SMILE (:


aww !! its finally over !! released LATE mann !! 6plus den release . so went off wit jaslyn . hohoho . went to RM to meet suni darlyn , grace grand-marmiie , melville and malcolm rabbit . LOls . went to buy CHALET 's things FOR TML !! yayyay !! TML is CHALET liaos !! weets !! i am lyk HELL happy ?! lar . hohohos . so excited man . cools . wakakas (:


went to LJS to pey suni eat nors . so miie and grace bought LARGE FRICE too (: yummy yummy !! humphs . i am NOW SO FAT liaos lar !! getting fatter and fatter lers . i wanna slim dwn oso CANNOT !! hais !! wakakas . LOls . its LATE !! i gotta go home !! suni and grace nid to go home too (: so grand-marmiie went to LRT station to take LRT . hahas . obviously . go LRT of cos is take LRT lar or not take AROEPLANE ? wakakas . LOls . humphs .. den miie , darlyn , favourite and rabbit went home tgt . dey sent miie home again !! wakakas !! humphs . SO FUNN !! tough today 's a REALLY tough day fer miie , i really enjoyed today SO HAPPILY lars !! without him , i realise i really still CANN LIVE (: thanks melville and rabbit and MOST IMPTLY !! MY tiaraFOUR ((: ue guys really brightened up my DAY (: SMILE . i love ue all . ue all are all so dear to MIIE (: mwarks .

~ { 6:26 AM }
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Sunday, June 04, 2006





weets .. KAIRUL LOOKS COOL in dhis pic (: he 's msg- ing HIS GIRL . wakakas . bleahs _ =p








the COUNCILLOR and FUTURE COMMANDER (:

walaos . THE GAY COUPLES lar . yarks . doin all those disgusting action in front of miie ?! cant believe lar .. always THE MOST MAN de TWO GUYS (kairul n ben) is actually a LIE man . dey are GAYS lar . NOT men .. hahas . bleahs .

the gay- iest kairul EVER (: HAHAS . din/NVR see him SO GAY BEFORE (: kekes . LOls .kairul 's and my REFLECTION !! THE TWOs WHO ARE IN LOVE with FOOTDRILL !! yayyay !! weets .. LOLs . =.='' kekes .
where 's ben looking at man ?! is he tinking of anna or the lady's butt we saw at PS jus now ? kekes . LOLs . so LAME =p

oops =x the guy who owaes say he 's the BEST COMMANDER cum FOOTDRILL HEAD is slacking NOW !! he 's SLEEPING !! wakakas .
kairul . he 's too shy lar (: hahas . act only lors . he 's the NOISEST lar . kekes . bleahs . Lols .
wei ben with HIS NERDY LOOKS (: opps . =x no OFFENCE please ~ kekes .


~ { 10:51 PM }
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well . many things happened from the START of JUNE till NOW . humphs . got molested by A LADY ?! frm the old folks home yea . hais . it was a nightmare . really scare miie off . hav phobia goin old folks home nowadays . dunno how to survive sia . REDCROSS will be goin to the old folks home lyk HELL loads of TYMS ?! hahas . LOls .


aft old folks home visit , nth special lars . its still the same things lors . continue to work lar . selling ice cream . jus dat everyday i have different kind of FUNN (:


humphs . i guess i wun hav the chance to work liaos cos my sheldue is FULLY BOOKED (: got CAMP ALMOST lyk EVERYDAY ?! and still got CLASS CHALET ON ?! waakkas . LOls .


050606 -
today , woke up so EARLY lyk 5 PLUS ?! to wash up and hav to reached SCHOOL 's REDCROSS room by 6.40 am . arghs !! went to SCHOOL for revision on FIRST AID ?! today's my first aid RETEST ?! sobbs . failed again lars .. wasnt in gd mood lar . but still very HAPPY (: hahas . SMILE . hahas . gotta retake the exam AGAIN ?! wakakas . bleahs .


aft the exam , knw dhat i have failed , waited for kairul n weiben nors . dhen py went to find HER FRENS ?! lar . LOls . so miie , kairul and weiben went to PS to eat OUR BREAKFAST cum LUNCH (: well , dhey took it as CELEBRATION OF PASSING FIRST AID ?! arghs . suan-ing miie ALL THE WAY lar !! kip suan-ing miie cos i FAILED first aid . humphs .. saddens .. hahas . but had A GREAT TIME with THEM lors (: went shopping ard aft eating and make kairul and wei ben VERY PAISEH cos i kip shouting HERE and THERE (:


hahas . took MRT baq to SK cos weiben nids to go baq to school !! so miie and kairul accompany him nors . tooks lotsa photos lar . hahas . snap shot dem (: bleahs =p

well . reached SK liaos . i din go baq to school wit dem cos weiben got dhat COUNSILLOR ?! meeting nors and KAIRUL wanns to go baq to SHOWOFF dhat he had PASSED HIS FIRST AID ?! hahas . if i go baq , den i will b odd cos i am the ONLY ONE who DIN pass FIRST AID LAR ?! HAHA .. Lols .

kks .. and ended up in front of my computer blogging lar .. hahas . bleahs . humphs . gotta end . goin shopping with sister and mummy i guess (: bleahs =p



gonna upload PHOTOs . ENJOY VIEWING those PHOTOS (:

~ { 10:22 PM }
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humphs . haven update my blog since 1st of JUNE liaos . hais . life is really meaningless lor . have got NTH muchh to tok abt LIFE eversince HE LEFT miie alone in the WORLD OF TOTAL DARKNESS .

had cried for him . had done my BEST dhat i cann for him but i what did i get baq in RETURN ?! its NTH . really tired lers .

speechless . heartbroken . i am really picking up the SHATTERED pieces of my HEART ALONE . left with NO ONE in my LIFE NOW !!


louisa had left miie too . she and i are NO LONGER BAOBEIS liaos . i guess she 's living even happier without miie . i am SUCH A BURDEN TO EVERYONE . i am sorry . i dunno what to do den ue guys will FORGIVE miie but i will only SAY SORRY . really SORRY .

there 's nth left in my LIFE . my LIFE is totally MEANINGLESS . dunn feel lyk blogging too .

i will jus hope dat alfred , ue will takkare of urself and be happy FOREVER okaes . i hope dat ue will LOVE her truly FOREVER . DUNN EVER DARE TO disappoint her okays . i knw ue cann live happily without miie so i dunn hav to say ANYTHING . jus TAKKARE my boy (:

LOVEya till the very END .


LOUISA , hope ue will live happily too . dunn wanna disturb ur LIFE anyMORE . I M SORRY IF I DID IN THE PAST . i mean i m sorry if i DID disturb ue in the PAST . I WILL NVR disturb ue ANYMORE AGAIN (:



LOVED <33

~ { 8:37 AM }
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Thursday, June 01, 2006


arghs !! mummy woke miie up in the morning lars !! but i told her to lar .. kekes . LOLs .. its lyk SO EARLY ?! wakakas !! so i went to wash up lar n prepare my bag fer the day .. i went to schh for REDCROSS FIRST AID . humphs !! tired tired !! took LRT dere .. thought the lesson was 11am but xuanle's msg came .. he told miie its 11.30am !! wahhas !! waste my tym sia !! i cann slp more der lors . make miie go sch so early .. wakakas . LOLs .. vincent n baobei called miie when i was on the way to sch .. we were chatting lyk hell funny lars !! wakakas . LOLs . vincent told miie he wantto go schh find miie so i say okayes lor .. kekes . LOLs . i in sch oso nth to do mahhs .. so vincent put dwn the fone n went to bathe all those lars .. so only left miie n baobei louisa on the fone lors .. i m crapping all along lar .. and i guess she 's laughing all the along . bleahs .. i hope i have brightened up her life ((:


went into schh .. saw sinyan n chiyong and many more .. all redcross der ppl lars .. and i started to crap again lors . wakakas .. i m driving dem crazy i guess . LOLs .. opps .. hummphs .. siao sia my schh .. got some NO LIFE peeps .. owaes diao miie but duunn dare let miie see . dey tot i nvr see sia .. so i go in front of dem and diao dem baq lor .. i dunn give a DAMN ! lols . opps .. saw police officers in schh .. hais . i noe wad is it abt ler lars .. its so obvious . i guess its bcos of my kor der case lor . hais . sadded . i really hope nth happen lor .. hais .. humphs .. started to crap again aft dat moment of saddness .. LOls .. druga dey all are trying to stop miie but dey failed .. wkakas . shermaine called !! she asked miie to go REDCROSS room fer the lesson .. wakakas .. she teached miie CPR . taoyan !! kekes . LOls .. i learnt lar.. but i still crapp LOADS lor .. LOLs .. matthew n cythia came in .. i started to argue wit MATTHEW .. hahas . he 's so cute lar .. lyk baby lykdat .. owaes lyk to argue wit miie . kekes . LOLs .. humphhs .. though hav arguement but its really funn kind lars .. he still treat miie gd der . ahahas .. still give miie cheese ball and mummmum !! kekeks .. LOls ..


vincent msg-ed miie and told miie dhat he waited for miie outside econ for very long liaos cos he cannot go into schh .. haha .. so i rushhed out of the schh aft my lesson to find him lars .. hahas . he so kelian .. waiting for miie outside schh .. cos he wears home cloths so mr zaidi dunn let him in . LOLs . den we went to econ outside n wait for LOUISA BAOBEI to come .. hahas .. i bought noodles to eat lar .. so hungry . kekes .. baobei was late but we are NOT angry lar ((:


den dey pey miie go home .. i went home to bath n change lors .. den do everything fast fast lar .. den went out with vincent n louisa liaos .. humphs .. vincent wanted to cut hair der but he feels dat its too late liaos cos we got work later on so he say next tym den cut lor . so we went to CP and find our group lars .. humphs .. saw sofia jie n evon .. humphhs . vincent made funn of dem lar .. haiyos .. so naughty .. got so muchh funn lars !! humphhs.. fei shawn today nvr come so dey asked louisa to replace shawn's place lor .. hais .. today in earn muchh but i earned LOADS of LAUGHTER ((:


i really enjoyed myself lor .. the whole day i spent it with vincent n louisa .. half of the day , i spent it with vincent , louisa , duan meng , weilun , yakseng , youyi and MYSELF ((: kekes . LOLs ..



really had lotsa funn today .. i really enjoyed myself today .. iLOVE dem .. humphs .. perhaps life without alfred is somehow sometimes really GOOD !! time passes real FAST without him ((: i hope he ' ll b happy nors .. SMILE .. i missed my boy too .. LOls .. i mean dat church guy perhaps .. though he 's not my guy yet lar .. wakakas . LOLs .


kkks.. takkare peeps .. end here liaos .. cos i really dunn feel lyk blogging anymore ((:

~ { 9:03 AM }
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